Long time…no writing. A lot happened, good stuff for which I am thankful every day, but now I am back to have some fun … I missed writing…
Have you ever thought for a second what your life would look like now if you hadn’t forgot your worth along the way? I did… many times and I still wonder, from time to time, what my life would look like today if, for example, I hadn’t listen to my parents to follow a school that I didn’t love, if sometimes I didn’t tried to hide my feelings or my voice or my opinions to the rest of world. What would have happened today if yesterday and the day before yesterday I would have listened to my heart more than my mind? I don’t know… I mean, you never know, but as a concept it blows my mind every time I think about it. This is a fact!
What comforts me instead is the fact that everything that happened so far in my life marked a path so surprisingly synchronized with the things that in the past didn’t make any sense, that today I finally realized the fact that our lives are not just a random course of events with no connection between them. As a theory I have always knew this, but today I truly feel that every minute of our lives is lived with the purpose of unfolding the next scene, the next step, the next greatest version of our journey. That’s it. There is no purpose to focus on exactly, the only thing that we have to focus on are our feelings. They are telling us what to choose and what is best for us based on our preferences, as they did when we were children. Our aim in life is to be happy, no matter what that means, not matter who you are and what you dream about at night, no matter what color you have or if you brushed your teeth last night, no matter if you live in China or Romania, no matter if you write with your left hand or your right hand or if you don’t know how to write at all. We all aim for happiness. Ask anyone you know what they want in life…I am pretty sure that the answer will be happiness.
I now remember the way I looked at life when I was 12 years old. I just didn’t look at it…at all! I just lived it day by day, choice by choice, feeling by feeling and I bet you did this too, we just have to remember that peace is inside us and trust our feelings more than anything on this earth; and I mean it. We complicate things and we turn them upside down in such a way that sometimes we don’t know how to deal with them without challenging our heart and mind as if we were in some sort of competition with life itself. But we are not…we just created this illusion that covers the depths of our true selves; and I know for sure that you all remember your worth and your magic and if you don’t, just do me a favor and look close in the mirror and stare into your own eyes and you will see the perfection itself.
It is perfectly normal to encounter stuff that we don’t like and it is normal to deal with things that we don’t understand, it happens to me every single day of my life, but I am somehow trusting that all of this will unfold later and will paint my journey with contrast…I just have to chill down, take a deep breath and follow my feelings to the end of this world, I guess I don’t really have a better option anyways.
Sure my life was never perfect and it is so far away from perfect, if you try to define perfection thru the “high standards” that society sticks on your forehead. But it’s pretty good so far and I might never reach their perfection, but for sure I will do my best to embrace my full potential by serving my feelings and my desires, the best way I can.
So let’s chill, take a deep breath and realize that we are not running a marathon or beating ourselves, we now remember that we just have to live one day at a time, like a naughty child that explores the world.
“Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go and do that”
-Howard Thurman-